Sick of life
I'm having a shit time of it right now, or at least that's what it feels like. Trying to get everything wrapped up for the tour, switching rooms at home, and saying goodbye to everyone. I'm snapping over nothing, and it's making me feel like a complete asshole. Hell, I am a complete asshole.
Today, I spent most of my time cleaning out my room, and packing my clothes for the trip. I also got my hair cut, which was kind of a big deal for me. I've been growing my hair out since 5th grade or so, and today got about 14" cut off. It's real different. My sister took pictures of the whole thing, which was nice of her. However, I was telling my friends about it, and they were like "Pictures!!!!", and so I asked her if she was going to download them from her camera. She said not anytime soon. So I asked her if I could, and she got touchy about it and refused. This really pissed me off, for no real good reason. It's her camera, she can do whatever she likes with it. I don't know why I was so pissed about it.
I've realized that I have no creativity or artistic talent. I've been painting a lot recently - the boat has needed a coat of paint, and I'm also painting the boxes I'm going to be using on the boat for my stuff. The paint on the boat is going ok - but that's just refreshing what's already on there. Painting the boxes has been really annoying me. It's not turning out anywhere near what I wanted it to. I haven't been able to get a solidly taped straight line at all, so all the stripes I'm painting have little random bulges in them where the tape wasn't pressed down all the way. I know for a fact that I sealed the entire edge of the tape as much as possible. Also, I had crappy luck trying to sand off some of the other paint on the lid after an experiment, and grabbing the wrong grit sandpaper - so now my box has huge scratches in it. I thought the paint would obscure some of it, but no, that would be nice. It's real obvious. Ugh.
I'm getting too worked up over anything. Fuck all of this. I just want life to be less fretting. So much for that - I'm on tour, on display 24/7 for the entire summer. Fucking wonderful.
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Today, I spent most of my time cleaning out my room, and packing my clothes for the trip. I also got my hair cut, which was kind of a big deal for me. I've been growing my hair out since 5th grade or so, and today got about 14" cut off. It's real different. My sister took pictures of the whole thing, which was nice of her. However, I was telling my friends about it, and they were like "Pictures!!!!", and so I asked her if she was going to download them from her camera. She said not anytime soon. So I asked her if I could, and she got touchy about it and refused. This really pissed me off, for no real good reason. It's her camera, she can do whatever she likes with it. I don't know why I was so pissed about it.
I've realized that I have no creativity or artistic talent. I've been painting a lot recently - the boat has needed a coat of paint, and I'm also painting the boxes I'm going to be using on the boat for my stuff. The paint on the boat is going ok - but that's just refreshing what's already on there. Painting the boxes has been really annoying me. It's not turning out anywhere near what I wanted it to. I haven't been able to get a solidly taped straight line at all, so all the stripes I'm painting have little random bulges in them where the tape wasn't pressed down all the way. I know for a fact that I sealed the entire edge of the tape as much as possible. Also, I had crappy luck trying to sand off some of the other paint on the lid after an experiment, and grabbing the wrong grit sandpaper - so now my box has huge scratches in it. I thought the paint would obscure some of it, but no, that would be nice. It's real obvious. Ugh.
I'm getting too worked up over anything. Fuck all of this. I just want life to be less fretting. So much for that - I'm on tour, on display 24/7 for the entire summer. Fucking wonderful.
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posted by The Wookie | 6:50 PM
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