Drama.

What the hell. I seriously can't get involved with any female in any fashion without serious drama being involved. I hate it.

The last week of school, I started hanging out a friend of Panda's (Bonobo Girl from here on out) more. She's an interesting character, but a bit much at times. I started talking to her on AIM more frequently once school ended, and yesterday she was like "I'm kind of interested in you." We had a big discussion about this, and came to the conclusion that neither of us would mind hooking up with the other, but she was ok with me not being interested in more. Tonight, she and I were talking, and then Panda came online. I talked to her for a bit, and then she got really cold, and was just like "Ok, bye."

Apparently, Bonobo Girl wanted to talk to someone about the situation with me, and picked Panda. This was a bad move. The two were thinking of rooming together, and this was Panda's response to Bonobo Girl:

Bonobo Girl-
I’ve been seriously considering becoming your roommate, but...I’ve had a thing for Wookie since day one, and I’m not sure if I could cope with you guys having sex in our room.
I’m sorry, I just kind of wish you’d never told me.
I wish you luck.
-Panda

This is verbatim - Bonobo Girl sent it to me. So, that clears up my questions on what Panda feels for me. Now, I just have to figure out what I feel for her. I've been talking with Bonobo Girl a lot about this whole situation, and what she really wants is to have her friendship with Panda stay intact. Why do I always have to chose things like this? I don't know what I feel for Panda, I would love to fuck Bonobo Girl. However, I don't want to lose Panda as a friend, and at this moment, wouldn't mind dating her. Unfortunately, I don't know if I'm ready to be in a committed relationship. Fuck. Well, I'm going to call Panda tomorrow, and see where things go.


I'm home now, and that has it's own set of issues. I'll talk about those later. Now, I need to sleep.




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