I've been feeling really down as of late (or is it still?). I feel like I've been neglecting my friends - I've been spending quite a bit of time with Jill. I'm not sure if they miss me or not, but I know I feel kind of selfish about not hanging out with them often. Panda in particular mentioned that we haven't seen that much of each other of late. I haven't hung out with my roommate in a looong time (he's been involved with his new girlfriend as well), and the girls across the hall and I haven't hung out in weeks. Admittedly, one of them (Shannon) is pissed at me for being involved with Jill.

That's something new - I found out that there is at least one person on campus who doesn't like me. Jill's roommate, to be specific. I'm really not surprised - over the past few weeks, I've been kind of a prick to her. However, once I was called on it, I really tried to be good. However, I didn't even get a chance (see the April 24th post). Ugh. Then, the other night, Jill told me about some of the conversation she had with Shannon, who is apparently mad at me because I didn't tell her about Jill and I. What the hell? I was trying to be nice - Jill and I hooked up rather quickly after Shannon had expressed interest.  We were trying to be discrete about it, and not hurt her feelings.  I have the feeling that Shannon would have been pissed at me no matter what I did.  Goddammit.  Now everyone is pissed at me.  

Fuck this.  After this summer (with Betty), I'm not getting involved again.  It's not worth it.


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