Drama drama drama
Well, September has been an interesting month.
Things with Bonobo Girl and Panda have blown up. I'll start from the beginning. I watch a movie with Bonobo Girl, and we end up making out, and fooling around a bit. This is like 3 weeks ago. At this point, I had decided that I was going to go for it with her, because I knew I would regret it if I didn't. She ended up stopping things, and saying that she couldn't do it. At this point, I should have dropped the whole thing, and called it good. Nope, that would have been the smart thing to do. About a week later, or so, she and I go on a walk, talk a lot, and end up having sex on the soccer practice field in the moonlight. That was very fun. However, we both feel a little guilty about it. The next night I go on a walk with Panda, and we have a talk about where we stand in regards to each other, and decide (as far as I can tell) that we are better off as friends. We laughed about it a lot, and decided that we would have lasted about a week before both of us second guessed ourselves far too much and crashed and burned horribly. Throughout this, I've still been hanging out with Jill occasionally, though nothing had developed. On the 28th, I hook up with Bonobo Girl again. The Sunday following that, she and I have a talk, and I told her that I really felt kind of guilty about the whole thing, and needed to figure things out with Jill. She didn't seem to take this super well, but she agreed with it. Things progressed ok for about a week.
This past weekend, it all went to hell. Friday night, I go to Jill's, watch Pitch Black and The Chronicles of Riddick back to back, and spend the night there. Her roommate leaves early in the morning, we have sex. Saturday night, I go over there, watch a movie, and head back to my place, almost walking in on my roommate having sex (they were just coming out of the shower). The room is kind of tossed around, clothes everywhere, and there's a note on my laptop - "Dear Wookie - Stop being a douchebag. Oh, and a liar. Liars aren't fun either." It was signed by Panda and Bonobo Girl, with the first sentence being written by Panda, and the second part by Bonobo Girl. I was very confused. I look at Bonobo Girl's away message Sunday morning, and it said something about boycotting a person. I then tried to talk to her, and she was like "I'm supposed to be ignoring you." and wouldn't talk to me. What the hell did I do?
I sent a message to both her and Panda that I wanted to talk to them, and when they were ready to, to let me know. I talked to a common friend of ours, the Treasurer of Fencing Club, and laid the whole problem out for her. Then at lunch today, I saw them both, and they did completely ignore me. I then got a message from Bonobo Girl, who kind of cleared up the situation - as far as I can understand it, Panda feels like I've abandoned her as a friend, or something along those lines, and Bonobo Girl is standing by her. However, I could be truly mis reading the whole thing. I sent them both messages, apologizing, and just trying to get them to talk to me so I can work things out. I really hate shit like this.
Also this morning, Jill told me she had an anxiety attack. I still don't know where she and I stand, whether it's just close friends, or if it's more than that. Next weekend is October break here, and hopefully a lot of this will be clearer by then.
Oh! My car is fixed as well - my mechanic drove the 4 hours to my school (long story as to why - suffice to say, that kind of thing is why he is our mechanic), and we got it all sorted out so I can drive it back home, so they can run through it quick in the shop. That's one thing that's a stress taken care of.
The rest of it - we'll see. I may end up castrated in a dumpster somewhere.
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Things with Bonobo Girl and Panda have blown up. I'll start from the beginning. I watch a movie with Bonobo Girl, and we end up making out, and fooling around a bit. This is like 3 weeks ago. At this point, I had decided that I was going to go for it with her, because I knew I would regret it if I didn't. She ended up stopping things, and saying that she couldn't do it. At this point, I should have dropped the whole thing, and called it good. Nope, that would have been the smart thing to do. About a week later, or so, she and I go on a walk, talk a lot, and end up having sex on the soccer practice field in the moonlight. That was very fun. However, we both feel a little guilty about it. The next night I go on a walk with Panda, and we have a talk about where we stand in regards to each other, and decide (as far as I can tell) that we are better off as friends. We laughed about it a lot, and decided that we would have lasted about a week before both of us second guessed ourselves far too much and crashed and burned horribly. Throughout this, I've still been hanging out with Jill occasionally, though nothing had developed. On the 28th, I hook up with Bonobo Girl again. The Sunday following that, she and I have a talk, and I told her that I really felt kind of guilty about the whole thing, and needed to figure things out with Jill. She didn't seem to take this super well, but she agreed with it. Things progressed ok for about a week.
This past weekend, it all went to hell. Friday night, I go to Jill's, watch Pitch Black and The Chronicles of Riddick back to back, and spend the night there. Her roommate leaves early in the morning, we have sex. Saturday night, I go over there, watch a movie, and head back to my place, almost walking in on my roommate having sex (they were just coming out of the shower). The room is kind of tossed around, clothes everywhere, and there's a note on my laptop - "Dear Wookie - Stop being a douchebag. Oh, and a liar. Liars aren't fun either." It was signed by Panda and Bonobo Girl, with the first sentence being written by Panda, and the second part by Bonobo Girl. I was very confused. I look at Bonobo Girl's away message Sunday morning, and it said something about boycotting a person. I then tried to talk to her, and she was like "I'm supposed to be ignoring you." and wouldn't talk to me. What the hell did I do?
I sent a message to both her and Panda that I wanted to talk to them, and when they were ready to, to let me know. I talked to a common friend of ours, the Treasurer of Fencing Club, and laid the whole problem out for her. Then at lunch today, I saw them both, and they did completely ignore me. I then got a message from Bonobo Girl, who kind of cleared up the situation - as far as I can understand it, Panda feels like I've abandoned her as a friend, or something along those lines, and Bonobo Girl is standing by her. However, I could be truly mis reading the whole thing. I sent them both messages, apologizing, and just trying to get them to talk to me so I can work things out. I really hate shit like this.
Also this morning, Jill told me she had an anxiety attack. I still don't know where she and I stand, whether it's just close friends, or if it's more than that. Next weekend is October break here, and hopefully a lot of this will be clearer by then.
Oh! My car is fixed as well - my mechanic drove the 4 hours to my school (long story as to why - suffice to say, that kind of thing is why he is our mechanic), and we got it all sorted out so I can drive it back home, so they can run through it quick in the shop. That's one thing that's a stress taken care of.
The rest of it - we'll see. I may end up castrated in a dumpster somewhere.
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posted by The Wookie | 1:16 PM
1 Comments:
I think your story just goes to prove... you can't have your cake and eat it too.
You can't have sex with a girl and remain friends. Sure it will work out that way sometimes but you can't plan it. You are either in or out so to speak. I think it's rare to find a girl who will accept a friends with benefits situation. Even if she's saying she will, in most cases she can't. It's just not in them to do so.
It does sound as if Panada is stirring the pot with you and Bonobo girl. Maybe she was jealous when she heard about the soccer field escapade? Either way you shouldn't play the don't ignore me game. You should tell them you hate that they feel that way but you did nothing to intentionally hurt anyone. Then go about your business and let it be their problem.
Bravo on the car! Good mechanics are tough to find :)
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