*resigned sound effect*
I'm home for the weekend. It's both good and bad. Good - nice break from school, time to sleep, good to drive my car again, nice to see my family. Bad - not getting any work done, spending money I don't really have, mediating between all of my family, having an allergic reaction to the family cats (nothing serious, just enough to be a real hassle), and overall being totally lazy and bored. I kind of want to go back to school now.
This morning, I forgot to turn my alarm on my cell phone off. It goes off at 8 - my sister turns it off. Half an hour later, just as I'm starting to fall asleep again, she comes into my room and literally jumps on me. She then proceeds to maul me for almost the better part of half an hour. That was not fun. I was looking forward to sleeping in. So much for that idea. Bleh.
Life is feeling wierd right now, and I don't know why. I often feel like I'm just floating through it, dreamlike, and it worries me. I don't know how to fix that feeling, or how to make myself happier with what life is bringing me. I don't really feel like I'm much of an entity right now - closer to a tool that people use for help or whatever they need. I'm worried that if I refuse doing stuff like that, I will just kind of disappear. I know that sounds stupid. I just don't know.
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This morning, I forgot to turn my alarm on my cell phone off. It goes off at 8 - my sister turns it off. Half an hour later, just as I'm starting to fall asleep again, she comes into my room and literally jumps on me. She then proceeds to maul me for almost the better part of half an hour. That was not fun. I was looking forward to sleeping in. So much for that idea. Bleh.
Life is feeling wierd right now, and I don't know why. I often feel like I'm just floating through it, dreamlike, and it worries me. I don't know how to fix that feeling, or how to make myself happier with what life is bringing me. I don't really feel like I'm much of an entity right now - closer to a tool that people use for help or whatever they need. I'm worried that if I refuse doing stuff like that, I will just kind of disappear. I know that sounds stupid. I just don't know.
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posted by The Wookie | 5:52 PM
2 Comments:
Oh dear sometimes I read your blog and find myself identifying with so much of what you say. I often feel like that - like I am just floating in a big dream and everything is one big blur! You want to do something but you can't.
I think many people feel like this at some stage in their lives! I think it's just part of growing and developing, not being sure of who you are and what you want - that feeling will pass with time trust me!
Dude Xanga is so commercial now, it bugs me, but I've been on there for so long.
Reevaluate how happy you are with your goals and maybe change them.
I still miss you.
-Nor-
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