Fuck off and die.
That pretty much sums up my opinion of the world right now. I'm unreasonably depressed, and feel the need to raze a town into the ground, and sow it with salt (ala Carthage and the Romans).
This weekend was fun, yet crappy at the same time. My roomie's girlfriend had a friend visiting for the weekend. She was pretty good looking, and apparently one of her secondary goals of coming to visit was to hook up. Of course, it wasn't to hook up with me. I have no idea why I should expect it to be, but still. I was very disappointed.
The friend of ours that she did end up hooking up with is the one who always gets all the action anyways. I was pissed. He doesn't need any more girls lusting after him - he has to juggle them (figuratively, haha) as it is. Fucker.
I'm not sure why I've been feeling down lately. I mean, there is the not getting laid part, but that's the norm, and it seems like a trivial thing to get upset over for an extended period of time. Maybe it's that I feel that college will be my one opportunity to "broaden my sexual horizons." Or something like that. Maybe I'm just missing intimacy. Who knows. It could be totally unrealted and that's just what I've been using as an excuse. I haven't been playing music at all really (I took my bass out for like 5 min today, first time this semester), and I haven't been really working out at all. Maybe it's just pent up energy coming out as semi rage. Ugh. Fuck this shit. The thing that pisses me off is that I just want to enjoy life, but I don't know how to do that.
Crap.
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This weekend was fun, yet crappy at the same time. My roomie's girlfriend had a friend visiting for the weekend. She was pretty good looking, and apparently one of her secondary goals of coming to visit was to hook up. Of course, it wasn't to hook up with me. I have no idea why I should expect it to be, but still. I was very disappointed.
The friend of ours that she did end up hooking up with is the one who always gets all the action anyways. I was pissed. He doesn't need any more girls lusting after him - he has to juggle them (figuratively, haha) as it is. Fucker.
I'm not sure why I've been feeling down lately. I mean, there is the not getting laid part, but that's the norm, and it seems like a trivial thing to get upset over for an extended period of time. Maybe it's that I feel that college will be my one opportunity to "broaden my sexual horizons." Or something like that. Maybe I'm just missing intimacy. Who knows. It could be totally unrealted and that's just what I've been using as an excuse. I haven't been playing music at all really (I took my bass out for like 5 min today, first time this semester), and I haven't been really working out at all. Maybe it's just pent up energy coming out as semi rage. Ugh. Fuck this shit. The thing that pisses me off is that I just want to enjoy life, but I don't know how to do that.
Crap.
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posted by The Wookie | 8:41 PM
1 Comments:
Awww sorry to hear your feeling like crap. If it's any consolation I feel like shit too at the moment and I really don't know why!
Can you just chill out or something? Try and forget about the bad things that are getting you down right now.
It is just a phase, it will pass. It's just grey skies passing over - eventually they will go and the sun will come out!
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