Failure?

Recently I've been feeling decidely . . . looserish, for lack of a better term. I feel as if I have no really abilities. I mean, yes I know I have some, but none that are useful. I am the best 5 year old out there, as far as making funny noises (pops, clicks, whistles, whatever). That's about it as far as ability that I feel that I have currently. In high school, I was good in school - college, not so much. I'm essentially failing out with B's (due to scholarship requirements - if I lose that, I can't really stay). Mostly this (the feeling of failure), was brought on by a math test - every time I have a math test, I feel like a complete moron. I never remember any of the things I need to, and to top it off, I am in one of the lower level math classes (PreCalc), which is a first for me. I hate feeling dumb.

I think my major problem is I'm not good at anything I want to be good at - video games (other than Forza, which I have spent far too much time on), sports, driving, sex, computers, artistic anything, life in general. Ugh. Why do I always feel that I should excel at anything I do without trying?

That's all the whining for today.


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