And . . . bleh

Well, I've had a cold for the past few days - nose thinking it's related to a waterfall, lungs occasionally trying to jump out of my chest through my throat, headache once in a while. Thankfully, I'm mostly over it now.

This past week has been interesting, I guess. The being sick kind of sucked, but I also realized I might have a chance at getting laid. However, I also realized that I think of how my actions affect other people far too much. The girl who expressed interest in me, is a close friend with my close female friend who told me she was interested in pursuing something more with me (which I shut down, as far as I can tell). Therefore, if I was to hook up with this other girl, I think my close friend's feelings would be hurt. Also, my school is really small (1500 people), so any news travels like wildfire. I hate being the subject of rumors. Ugh. Why do I think so much?!! It's annoying, and leads to me missing out on lots of opportunities. Oh well.

I had a thought the other day, that I am one of the people in life who is just there to help other people enjoy life. I live through other people's experiences. Maybe that's bad, maybe I just suck at life. Who knows.



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