Contemplations
I realized the other day that I wasn't satisfied with my life as it is. The problem with that is that I don't know how to make myself satisfied. I have a car that I can use, I have a job (kind of), I'm playing music, I should be happy. However, I'm not.
As I was thinking about this, I realized that I don't have too many friends here at home. After having been in a dorm setting for a good portion of the year, I come home to sitting in my room, typing on this blog, looking at MySpace.com, listening to music, and trying not to annoy my sister. Most of my friends here are of the casual type (ie, we don't really hang out together much). We did hang out when we were at school (high school, last year), but that was because we were all there, and there really wasn't anyone else interesting. Don;t get me wrong, I really like my friends here, but I only really miss one of my high school friends while I'm at college. He's in the Midwest now with the military anyways, so I don't get to see him much.
So that might be one reason that I'm not satisfied with my life right now. Another is that I have quite a few projects that are going on, that are in pieces, and are just kind of sitting. I'm horrible at finishing projects. A previous post explains that in more detail. Also, I hate my job. I know, I've only had it for two and a half weeks, but I truly dislike it. I probably should be up there right now, but I woke up late, and I'm doing a workout with a friend at 3. So, I'm going to give it a miss for today. I'm not sure what I hate about it most. When I think about it, I can't find anything that's really bad about it - I'm working outside, the drive up there is really fun, the lady I'm working for is ok, the work isn't that hard, but still, I really hate it. Grr. It's not like I have much choice, with the summer half over, but goddammit! I wish I could be working at my old job.
So that's my misery rant for the morning. On a completely different note, I was looking at the area around my computer, and realized that I have a ton of trash in my room, but also the fact that trash is composed of totally empty boxes of crackers, bags of chips, and Goldfish containers. I remember opening most of them, and finishing all of them off. By myself. No wonder my friends at school call me a stoner without the drugs. I'm easily amused, and I eat like I have the munchies 24/7. This is bad.
Well, that's about all that's in my head right now. I'm going to go eat a box of crackers now :)
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As I was thinking about this, I realized that I don't have too many friends here at home. After having been in a dorm setting for a good portion of the year, I come home to sitting in my room, typing on this blog, looking at MySpace.com, listening to music, and trying not to annoy my sister. Most of my friends here are of the casual type (ie, we don't really hang out together much). We did hang out when we were at school (high school, last year), but that was because we were all there, and there really wasn't anyone else interesting. Don;t get me wrong, I really like my friends here, but I only really miss one of my high school friends while I'm at college. He's in the Midwest now with the military anyways, so I don't get to see him much.
So that might be one reason that I'm not satisfied with my life right now. Another is that I have quite a few projects that are going on, that are in pieces, and are just kind of sitting. I'm horrible at finishing projects. A previous post explains that in more detail. Also, I hate my job. I know, I've only had it for two and a half weeks, but I truly dislike it. I probably should be up there right now, but I woke up late, and I'm doing a workout with a friend at 3. So, I'm going to give it a miss for today. I'm not sure what I hate about it most. When I think about it, I can't find anything that's really bad about it - I'm working outside, the drive up there is really fun, the lady I'm working for is ok, the work isn't that hard, but still, I really hate it. Grr. It's not like I have much choice, with the summer half over, but goddammit! I wish I could be working at my old job.
So that's my misery rant for the morning. On a completely different note, I was looking at the area around my computer, and realized that I have a ton of trash in my room, but also the fact that trash is composed of totally empty boxes of crackers, bags of chips, and Goldfish containers. I remember opening most of them, and finishing all of them off. By myself. No wonder my friends at school call me a stoner without the drugs. I'm easily amused, and I eat like I have the munchies 24/7. This is bad.
Well, that's about all that's in my head right now. I'm going to go eat a box of crackers now :)
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posted by The Wookie | 8:22 AM
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